7th In The 10th

So here I am seventh in the tenth
Unchanged even it’s the third and second
Self pity’s still without the end
Temper still lacking the medicine
What could it be that keep on pressing
The more I learn the more it’s confusing
Like my mind is inside a coffin
Dark, thick, rough and suffocating

Do I know why do I know how
No need to mull over no need to scout
'Cause I do know why and I do know how
Clear as crystal in my head so loud
To do and to be is all that’s left now
Screw everything, realize my unkept vows
Follow the straight line, no bend and foul
But I stay rooted still, like a silly cow

Perhaps I feel time is on my side
Enough is not enough still plenty to bite
Sun’s still shinning with no sign of the night
This is awful I know but I have tried
Despite strangely looking at myself in spite
I can feel superior, a feeling I try to hide
So what am I to do except keeping it tight
Pray for the light and keep up the fight

It should be easier now since I’ve found her
Still the fight will go on and I will try harder
The pain won’t matter, I’ll keep going forever
For as long as I have my love for her.

*I just want to rhyme, and this is inspired by the Marshall..