How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Inception

What is wrong with Inception? I’ve been thinking about this immediately after the movie ended and I'm still not sure. Something is lacking. It’s not a bad movie, in fact I think it’s good. But something or the lack of something about the movie is bugging me. Walking out from the cinema I wasn’t fully satisfied when I really should be, because the movie was good, the acting was good, the story was good…still I wasn’t satisfied. There is SOMETHING missing..

I first saw the Inception trailer on Star Online and immediately I wanted to watch it because it is similar to ‘Dark City’, a movie I really like (I watched Dark City way back when I was studying in Arau). Then I found out Inception is Christopher Nolan’s and I was completely sold. He is my favorite director, and The Prestige and of course the Dark Knight are my favorite movies of his.

Another reason I really wanted to watch this movie was because of Leonardo DiCaprio. For me he is a brilliant actor and very underrated as well. I’m a fan of his since ‘The Beach’ and I cannot understand how some people still cannot see the brilliant actor that he is. Criminally underrated.

Inception is like the Italian Job or Ocean’s Eleven (or twelfth/thirteen/thousand), the difference is the gang of inception do their ‘conning’ through dreams. Interesting idea, though not the ‘original idea’ some of the critics would like you to believe. Matrix used the idea before and I’m sure there are a few other movies that have used the idea as well. Basically the movie is about messing with people’s minds to get to your goal.

My eyes were glued to the screen for the entire duration of the movie. It was just so absorbing, so intense. It was intelligent and the details Christ Nolan put into the movie was amazing.

I’m not going to say much more about it because the less you know the better. I was just too excited and read quite a few reviews and that turned out to be a mistake.I went into the cinema with a really high expectation; in the end Inception fell a bit short and I can’t help but feeling disappointed. A pity really, I should be happy with the quality of the movie.

Like I said earlier I can’t quite put my finger on exactly what is wrong but it probably the combination of a few things. One certain factor is the sucky seat I had in the cinema. I got the couple seat and I was really looking forward to cuddling with my gf while enjoying the movie but all I got in the end was a serious back pain. Calling the seat a ‘couple seat’ has got to be a cruel joke because we had to stay as far apart as possible just to be comfortable. Seating on it for almost 3 hours was no laughing matter. Such a pain!

The high expectation I had of course didn’t help. Reading the reviews, the words used to describe Inception were over the top. ‘Insanely intelligent, ‘mind boggling concept’, and the most ridiculous ‘the best movie ever’ were some of the descriptions used. To me, the movie is intelligent but saying it's insanely intelligent and calling Christ Nolan a genius because of it do not seem right. He's a genius alright, but not because of Inception. Mind boggling concept? Like I said lots have used the idea before, Christ Nolan merely put his own spin on it. Best movie ever? Sigh, it is not even the best Christ Nolan movie. Definitely not as good as The Prestige and Dark Knight.

The problem is though, most of the reviews I read were from a forum I really trusted and often agrees with when it comes to movies. I’m still scratching my head on this, how can I see Inception very differently from them? Did I miss anything from the movie? Do I not understand it? Am I not intelligent enough to understand it?

Or maybe, since this is a Christ Nolan movie, everybody wants this movie to be so good they failed to see it as it is...

The more I think about it the more I feel the problem with Inception is the storytelling. Apart from the intensity, it fails to connect with me through its characters (except for Dom Cobb). It also fails to go deeper on the conflicts and the problems as it is so fast paced (but at the same time the fast pace carries the intensity very well). Basically the movie focuses too much on Dom Cobb and neglects the rest. It could have gone deeper into the relationship between Fischer Jr and his dad, but it doesn’t. And for Ariadne, hmm, she is so underused to me (again, not going into details here, I don’t want this review to be a spoiler).

So after all my comments, how can I still say it’s a good movie? Well that’s because I keep thinking about it until now, and that’s the mark of a good movie. The intensity stays with you long after you left the cinema. It will keep occupying your mind even after you sleep on it. Inception does all that to me. And the reason I keep thinking about it is the ending. For me, they did the ending perfectly. It’s not just one of those endings where they leave the possibility of a sequel wide open, Inception ending actually dictates the whole story. How you see certain characters and happenings in the movie depends on how you interpret the ending.

By and large Inception is a good movie, one of the best I've seen this year actually. It's just the over the top reviews almost ruined it for me. Although it is not quite the instant classic some made it out to be, I am probably going to give it another watch. I'm definitely recommending this movie to everyone. Go watch it.

Roses Oh Roses

Roses oh roses why are you so senseless
Isn’t it enough to be what you already are
Why do you need to shove yourself to everyone’s noses
Why do you demand to be adored by everyone near and far

Roses oh roses why are you so annoying
You’re already red, pink, white and yellow
Now you want to be blue and black and I bet you’re wishing
To have rainbow coloured leaves that can also glow

Roses oh roses enough is enough
It’s ok to be proud of yourself but don’t be a snob
You better stop it now before I turn rough
Burn all of your petals and hand you over to the angry mob

Inside A Mug

Pick me up with your spoon because right now I feel so small
With all the riches in my life at the moment everything still seem so tall
Burning in the boiling water I keep telling myself to grow some balls
But I keep on running into dead ends and bumping into porcelain wall

Yeah yeah I know you have grown tired listening to all this
You would rather hear me say ‘it’s rosy let’s have some more of that kiss’
But I can’t help it if my life feels like a death sentence from the beast
At times the pain is so real it doesn't matter how hard I hold my fist

I’m at the point where I no longer bother to ask why
It’s easier to fake ignorance than to break fingers digging up the root and cry
Because as soon as the tears stop flowing and I wipe my eyes dry
I’ll be back laughing with my forsaken soul on the same pathetic high

31 years and still all I can see is only the light at the end of the tunnel
Like a never ending journey through a never ending murky canal
Don’t you dare telling me to get some perspective from the stories of them all
No chicken soup nonsense can ease the bulging ache inside from all the wobbles

Now I do understand I always come out looking like a whiny princess
A weak brat who cries like a sissy when things don’t fall into their places
But I know what I’m doing and trust me I’m not being an ungrateful jackass
This is just to let it all out so I can release all the bottled restlessness

So get lost and save your lecture because I know my life sucks
I’ve been lucky all my life and now it looks like I’m running out of luck
Looking to the past present and future I feel like a tiny hopeless little bug
Just waiting for the time, drowning and dying inside a mug




I have got to stop listening to Eminem!

The Night I Offended 'Fate'

How are you doing right now
Have you found someone new or are you still trying
Pity you can’t see the new me laughing out loud
After that lovely night I haven’t even stopped smiling

I actually saw you in my dream recently
You were walking alone aimlessly
Wet from the rain, angry for being lonely
And I just couldn’t help from smirking, forgive me

Still don’t feel too bad though
You made me believe for so long that I was doomed
Pat yourself in the back as you very well know
You did great in turning me into a gloomy loon

But that’s all in the past now isn’t it
That night I found the guts to give you the finger
Was the night my clouded self can finally see it
You were never mine, and you’re not going to be my future

You know the night I’m talking about right
Remember, I suddenly found the courage, out of the blue
Just to tell her I love her, just to tell her that I lied
And how I’ve been denying my true feelings because of you

Thought of life without her freed me from your squeeze
And now, not just I know that you’re not mine
I can even see you’re not what you want me to believe
You are not my life path, and you’re far from being divine

That night she rescued me from you
Was the night she knocked some sense in me too
So I could wave good bye, so I could risk offending you
And that night I offended you, was me taking a forward step or two

I am never going back to you
Because I refuse to believe my destiny is anything like you
I will forever remember that night I offended you
And how she gave me a reason to walk away from you.