A friend of mine wrote about her experiences in relationships. I read it with interest and one story in particular really opened up my eyes. It was liberating.
In that story she wrote about how she treated her boyfriend, how she bullied and then dumped him. She explained the reason in doing so and despite the bitterness I have deep inside, I can see it from her point of view (not saying it was ok for her to do it though).
My ex-girlfriend did the same thing to me. I was too preoccupied in making her happy until I neglected my own happiness. I was inexperienced as she was my first love so I guess she took advantage of it, using me to get out from her disastrous relationship at that time (yes you are reading right, I was the third person).
After we broke up, I spent months to get over the failed relationship. Anger, sadness, regret, hatred, you name it I felt it all. Friends helped all they can and slowly I started recovering through many phases, but reading the story helped me in something I can never do before, accepting.
I thought I had it bad, I thought I had it worst. I thought no one ever experienced what I went through. I was wrong. The story wasn’t exactly like mine but I can relate to it. I don’t know how to explain it but reading the story made me realise that what I went through was real and it is over. No more denial. I got played for a fool, for whatever reasons that she had, she played me. No disgrace in admitting that. I am at peace with that now.
I don’t know how long this new liberating feeling will last for me but at least I’m leaping forward with it now. Please pray for me that it will be everlasting.
And to my dear friend who wrote the story, thank you so much. Your writings are truly special. Keep inspiring the way only you can.
Baby darling, this one is for you…
In that story she wrote about how she treated her boyfriend, how she bullied and then dumped him. She explained the reason in doing so and despite the bitterness I have deep inside, I can see it from her point of view (not saying it was ok for her to do it though).
My ex-girlfriend did the same thing to me. I was too preoccupied in making her happy until I neglected my own happiness. I was inexperienced as she was my first love so I guess she took advantage of it, using me to get out from her disastrous relationship at that time (yes you are reading right, I was the third person).
After we broke up, I spent months to get over the failed relationship. Anger, sadness, regret, hatred, you name it I felt it all. Friends helped all they can and slowly I started recovering through many phases, but reading the story helped me in something I can never do before, accepting.
I thought I had it bad, I thought I had it worst. I thought no one ever experienced what I went through. I was wrong. The story wasn’t exactly like mine but I can relate to it. I don’t know how to explain it but reading the story made me realise that what I went through was real and it is over. No more denial. I got played for a fool, for whatever reasons that she had, she played me. No disgrace in admitting that. I am at peace with that now.
I don’t know how long this new liberating feeling will last for me but at least I’m leaping forward with it now. Please pray for me that it will be everlasting.
And to my dear friend who wrote the story, thank you so much. Your writings are truly special. Keep inspiring the way only you can.
Baby darling, this one is for you…
Free yourself from sorrow
Welcome joy with open arms
We always look for something to blame,
And too often we end up blaming ourselves.
The past is meant to be savoured
The present is for us to nurture
Hard as it is, letting go is the best cure
Easy as it is, bitterness will only leave you shattered
In the darkness there is peace, under the ruin there is hope
Look hard enough and you will find dreams in the nightmare
As we move on we have to bring along the lessons,
And leave behind the sadness.
Accept things as they are
Abandon your quest for perfection
Realise it’s acceptance you’re looking for
Free yourself from your sorrow and joy will find you.
Welcome it with open arms
1 comments on "Moving On"
I pray for it to be everlasting. Wishing you a smooth, easy, pleasant journey.
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