Zero

It’s a scary world out there
Sometimes too scary all I wanted to do is sleep
Because in my sleep everything I see is not real
Reality can’t compare to my dreams
Or my nightmares

I never cared much for anything
Greed they say is what brings all the troubles
Shrugging your shoulders ought to shield you from the pain
I guess that’s my way of staying safe
Or so I thought I’d be safe

It’s not your fault
The only thing you did wrong was to find me
As all this would have been a nothing
Nothingness can’t hurt you the way you are hurting right now
It wouldn’t beat you up silly

But there is no honour in nothingness
So we take the risk of taking the risk
Pushing aside our fears with the hope everything will be fine
Battling our fears that keep going in circle
Round and round

And it just never ends
And it just can’t go back to that point we wish it to be
Once it is gone it will never come back
Harsh it may seem but that’s the way it is
How wonderful if we could put a stop to it

I am hurting right now
If not worse probably just as much as you are
In my dreams it has never drifted to this
The point where I need to stop dragging my feet
And be face to face with reality