A Message

This is for you.

You are not unlucky, you are weak. You are not different, ‘different’ is just something you tell yourself in your attempt to justify it all. You are not a victim, you invite all the troubles. You are not sincere, you are a fraud.

You enjoy being depressed. You think you are depressed but you are not. You are just a drama retard.

Who are you blaming now? God? Your parents? Families? Friends? THEM?

Snap out of it, will you? It is getting old now.

You think you are being brave? How funny. You think you are ‘a candle who shoo darkness away for others’? Even funnier. You are just a coward. A stubborn coward that is. And you are selfish. When are you going to learn that everything you do, and everything that happens to you will affect other people? Unfortunate isn’t it, once we existed, like it or not we have that strings all over us that connect us to others. That’s a fact of life. Deal with it. Stop being a coward and stop being a selfish cow.

Stop trying to be philosophical. You don’t know the first thing about it. You look stupid when you try it. Your words, they are just empty words. No sense, no meaning. Every time something happens, you will try to make it look like you are just the victim of the circumstances.

“Oh look at that poor thing. So many problems and yet so much courage, such a strong spirit.”
That’s what you want them all to say right? Well fuck off!

And the most baffling part of it all, you actually believe that screw ups, the tragedies, will make you look good, isn’t it? You actually believe that. Mysterious. Deep. Interesting. Are those what you are going for? What are you, 13? Just how daft can you be?

You think it’s ‘cool’ to be miserable?

“Look at me ya’ll. Look at me peeps. I’m in deep shit ya’ll, but I can still paaaartay! Bejeezel deezeejel, I’m still down with it ya’ll!”

For crying out loud, STOP BEING FAKE!

You are a joke. Not because of your parents, or families, or friends, or THEM. You are the reason for all the troubles. It is you, nothing but you. And again, please try to understand this, YOU AFFECT OTHERS. No matter how much you try to take it all alone, no matter how much you think you are facing it alone, you are not. Y-o-u....a-f-f-e-c-t....o-t-h-e-r-s. That is just the way it is. You have got to start taking that responsibility. Stop hiding. Stop being a hypocrite.

And please stop blaming fate. It is really getting tiring.



Yours truly,

Me………
XXXOXOXOOOX






Eva, no, this is not about you. It's not about me either. In fact it's about no one. Yes, this is totally made up. :)