Me Against Skinny

I have a friend who is obsessed on losing weight. I kept saying that she looked fine, that she was not fat. But no, she insisted that she is fast gaining weight. “Help, I can’t fit into all of my jeans,” she told me. “Hmm, she is such an exaggerator,” I thought to myself.

She then forwarded me her latest picture to prove her point. Hehe, she was right, she gained weight! It’s funny because it was only two weeks since I last saw her and now her face is fuller than I remembered. So yes she did put on some weight. However she still doesn’t look fat to me. In fact, she is looking better than ever. Way better than when she was skinny as a stick. Unless fat to her meant something else, I just can’t understand it.

That’s what I don’t get, why do people so obsessed on being skinny. Actually I don’t care much about it until I watched Hancock, because Charlize Theron was really thin! She lost a large part of her beauty because of that. I was truly disappointed! People fussed over the fact that Angelina Jolie being skinny, that she’s not looking as good anymore but what about Charlize Theron? Her beauty is classic, and her body was perfect. She wasn’t fat, she was curvy, at all the right places. And now all that are gone. Losing her curves is a tragedy!

It is the same with Hillary Duff. I really like her in Lizzie McGuire. She was cute and the reason being she was a little bit chubby. But now she has joined the skinny club and looking anorexic. Erghh, why?! (**)

I just don’t get it!







**Please note that I am by no means a paedophile. Thank you.

Last Night

Last night I dreamt of you,
while the eyes were resting I dreamt of you,
while the tears were flowing I dreamt of you.

Memories we want to forget will linger,
memories we want to linger will disappear.
To reminisce is human nature,
trying to understand will only lead to torture.

Last night I called out your name,
While you were laughing I called out your name,
While you were crying I whispered your name.

Last night was just a chapter,
in the long journey to find cure.
Last night was just a seed,
for the inevitable growing of peace.

Last night I dreamt of you,
While the heart bleeds I dreamt of you.

Injustice - A Smoker's View

I heard from a very good source of mine (if I told you who I will have to kill you!) that the price of cigarettes will go up soon, AGAIN!

“What the hell??! Are you kidding me?!” was my reaction when I was told about it. Where is the justice in that? Think about it for a second. This is ridiculous!

We smokers are the most unfortunate group of people in the country. Our basic human rights are constantly being violated and yet no one is willing to stand up for us, no politician willing to protect us. It's unbelievable!

We can’t smoke in public places, we have posters everywhere plainly ridiculing us, the media only have bad things to say about us and cigarette companies are not even allowed to have any marketing campaign for their product. Remember about Dunhill being forced to drop their sponsorship for our football league? What was that all about? Now they can’t even sell small pack cigarettes anymore. Not all smokers can afford to buy large pack of cigarettes every time you know.

When the price of flour went up by 20 cents the uproars were unbelievable. NGO groups made loud noise about it. Every activist spoke up against it. All of them seemed willing to die fighting against the 20 cents hike. 20 CENTS! Come on, the level of cigarettes price hike is a lot worse, it’s on par with the petrol price hike. Why are we not doing anything about it? Are we all blind?

When the cigarette price went up by 80 cents last year, not only no one was against it, they were all applauding the hike! Where were the big shot politicians who claimed they care for the community? It is funny when they say “we are just public servants, we are working for the good of our community” because they clearly neglected the needs of smokers, the largest group in our community. Now I don’t have the statistics but it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out the fact that we smokers are the majority. No wonder BN lose its 2/3 majority during the last election. It’s simple math really, you neglect the majority and you will lose.

One MP (can’t remember the name) tried to stand up for us, by pleading to the parliament to stop this suppression against smokers. He said the price hike of cigarettes should be stopped. “It’s not fair” he said. Now that guy, he deserved a medal. That’s the kind of guy I would vote for. He should be the prime minister. He cares.

We always talk about discrimination against race, the poor, the weak, the ugly; when are we going to start talking about discrimination against smokers? We are not bad people. It is our individual right in choosing to smoke. We are not giving others a hard time by smoking so why should we be discriminate? Ok I admit, smoking is not the best thing for ones health but it’s the same with fast food, mamak food, junk food etc. Those things kill as many people. Why not put pressure on them? Why picked on us?

So please open up your eyes and your heart. We are not asking for much. We are only asking to be respected and treated equally. Stop the discrimination. We are humans, the same as everyone else. Have a heart, show compassion. Let’s make this country a better place for everyone, including the smokers. Thank you….

Shape Up!

I went jogging last Friday. Before work, I got up early and went jogging. Can you believe that? Normally I’ll get up at 9++ but that day I sacrifice my precious sleep just for that. Me getting up early to go jogging equals to going to the moon for some people.

What made me went jogging? Well I was just looking for a reason to try out my new reebok.

And oh yeah, I’m getting fat. It’s not like how it used to be when I can gain AND lose 3kg in less than a week. Now all the extra, unwanted fat seemed to find its permanent home in my body. Some of my shirts are getting tight at the tummy area. Embarrassing!

Getting fat was one of the reasons I went jogging. The other reason was I’m in a terrible shape right now. I got cramps a lot, lifting not-so-heavy staff will flattened me out. I can’t reach my toes standing up anymore. I used to do 250 push-ups everyday but now I’ll be lucky if I can do 10. It just occurred to me if I’m on a date and someone snatched my date’s bag I won’t even try to run after the snatcher because the chance of me getting back the bag is in the negative.

Sad isn’t it but that is the shape I’m in right now. So I need to do something. Going to the gym is an option but I don’t wanna embarrassed myself in front of other people. With my fitness level, the gym instructor will have to start my fitness programme at the same intensity with an 80 year-old grandma. Pathetic, I’m not even fit to go to the place people go to get fit!

Another thing I can do is quit smoking. That’s so obvious. I’m not the heaviest of smokers but it’s getting worse everyday. Not too long ago, one pack can last for two days, then it changed to one and a half day but now it is a pack a day. I used to proudly tell people who ask me to quit smoking, “I can quit anytime I want but I enjoy smoking and I don’t want to quit, so leave me alone.” How things are different now. Last year’s fasting month was really2 hard because I kept feeling the urge to smoke. The previous years’ I was totally ok so things did change. I ‘need’ to smoke now, not just ‘want’ to smoke.

I know a few people who quit smoking at the snap of their fingers. They have been smoking since they were in their mother’s womb but when they wanted to quit they just did it, as simple as that. That was encouraging but I don’t think I can do that. I’ve tried before to see how long I can go without a smoke and it didn’t go long at all. I think the problem is I enjoy it too much. I smoke when I’m angry, sad, anxious, happy, excited and in all the existing state of emotions known to human. When I’m bored and have nothing to do I’ll smoke. After a meal I just have to smoke. For me having a great meal without smoking afterwards is like watching a good movie without turning on the sound. Impossible!

Maybe I will try one of those quit smoking gadget soon. But 'maybe' is a big word for me. So don’t expect me to do it anytime soon.

Ok I have to go now. I need to smoke!

The Art of ‘Managing Expectation’

I am smart. I have no doubt that is true.

However, I have a very bad case of inferiority complex. Something must have happened to me during my childhood because I practically have zero confidence. I’m also a lazy bum and because of that I just couldn’t care less about doing anything on my inferiority complex. My lack of confidence combined with my laziness equals me right now; quiet, shy, selfish, anti social & difficult to be with. At least that’s what I think people see me as when they meet me the first time.

How do I cope with all that? I mean no matter how bad my ‘tak kisah’ attitude is, I still need to do something with myself. For instance, how do I survive at work? Having no confidence and being lazy cannot be good for your career. I’ve found a simple way to deal with that. It wasn’t easy, as I had to think of a way that will suit my laziness. But as I said I’m smart so of course I managed to figure it out. All I do is lowering people expectation on me.

You know how we guys get a lot of credit for every little thing that we do, right? Husbands especially get it all the time from their wives. Like if we suddenly decided to do the laundry after 6 months of absolutely not touching the washing machine, we will get a statue built for us. If one day we decided to do the dishes, we will get a town named after us. So really it’s the same everywhere, lower others’ expectation and when you suddenly decide to show your true worth everyone will go gaga over you.

So yeah that’s what I do. It’s not the most dignified thing to do but it’s working so who cares. I will tell bad sad story of myself to others to win over their sympathy. I’ll get them to say “You poor thing! Now you just sit back and relax. Don’t you worry about anything because we will take care of everything for you.” So I just sit back and relax and play stupid until when I feel like it, I will show a little bit of my true worth and they will go “wow, you have truly outdone yourself! You deserve a big pat on your back.”

So take note everyone, learn to manage expectation. It is the key to eternal bliss!

Sigh…

Moving On

A friend of mine wrote about her experiences in relationships. I read it with interest and one story in particular really opened up my eyes. It was liberating.

In that story she wrote about how she treated her boyfriend, how she bullied and then dumped him. She explained the reason in doing so and despite the bitterness I have deep inside, I can see it from her point of view (not saying it was ok for her to do it though).

My ex-girlfriend did the same thing to me. I was too preoccupied in making her happy until I neglected my own happiness. I was inexperienced as she was my first love so I guess she took advantage of it, using me to get out from her disastrous relationship at that time (yes you are reading right, I was the third person).

After we broke up, I spent months to get over the failed relationship. Anger, sadness, regret, hatred, you name it I felt it all. Friends helped all they can and slowly I started recovering through many phases, but reading the story helped me in something I can never do before, accepting.

I thought I had it bad, I thought I had it worst. I thought no one ever experienced what I went through. I was wrong. The story wasn’t exactly like mine but I can relate to it. I don’t know how to explain it but reading the story made me realise that what I went through was real and it is over. No more denial. I got played for a fool, for whatever reasons that she had, she played me. No disgrace in admitting that. I am at peace with that now.

I don’t know how long this new liberating feeling will last for me but at least I’m leaping forward with it now. Please pray for me that it will be everlasting.

And to my dear friend who wrote the story, thank you so much. Your writings are truly special. Keep inspiring the way only you can.

Baby darling, this one is for you…

Free yourself from sorrow
Welcome joy with open arms

We always look for something to blame,
And too often we end up blaming ourselves.

The past is meant to be savoured
The present is for us to nurture
Hard as it is, letting go is the best cure
Easy as it is, bitterness will only leave you shattered

In the darkness there is peace, under the ruin there is hope
Look hard enough and you will find dreams in the nightmare

As we move on we have to bring along the lessons,
And leave behind the sadness.
Accept things as they are
Abandon your quest for perfection
Realise it’s acceptance you’re looking for

Free yourself from your sorrow and joy will find you.
Welcome it with open arms

The Wonder of Istanbul – View from the Lucky Hill (part 1)

25 May 2005, a miracle happened.

The greatest reality show that is football produced one of the most unbelievable shows of human strength. Mind over matter, nothing is impossible, it ain’t over until it’s over. Those clichés were proven right when Liverpool came back from 3 goals down at half time to beat AC Milan and win the Champions League, Liverpool’s 5th time as the king of Europe.

I wanted to write something about the incredible match since the final whistle, but being me, here I am writing about it three years later.

Now I’m not going to write a match report as I’m sure a lot of people are tired of reading about it. What I’m going to do is I will try to take you through the roller coaster of emotions that I went through watching it. The match was the most exhausting football I have ever watched and if I remembered correctly, I only get to truly enjoy the triumph days later. I was in a state of disbelieve for days!

On the way to the finale, Liverpool defied the odds by beating the more fancied team in Chelsea and Juventus. The matches against those two teams itself were legendary, and with the highest of high spirit Liverpool went to the finale knowing they had every chance of beating AC Milan, the 2nd most successful team behind Real Madrid in European football.

For me, I was just happy that Liverpool made it to the final. All I hoped for the final was that Liverpool will do themselves proud and not to be humiliated by a team of amazing players that was AC Milan.

AC Milan had Nesta, Cafu, Stam & the evergreen Maldini in their defence. Any of those four players would walk into any side in the world, so to have them together in a team was truly unbelievable.

In midfield they have Pirlo, Gattuso, Seedorf & of course the most coveted Kaka. Kaka is the main player, the playmaker of Zidane type. His brilliance clearly showed in the first half of the miracle game (more on that later).

Then there was the small matter of the two strikers, Crespo & Shevchenko, whose goal to game ratio were just amazing.

Clearly it was an uphill task for Liverpool.

As I said earlier I was just happy that Liverpool made it to the finale. But as the match got closer, the hope I have that Liverpool will win it got bigger and bigger. When the game started, I absolutely believed that Liverpool will be victorious!

So off we go. And off they go too. They scored as early as the fifth minute. And of all the players, it was Maldini that scored the goal. If I’m not mistaken, scoring that goal made him the oldest scorer in Champions League final history. Blerghh, he hardly ever scored before!

I didn’t realize it at that time, but the goal was the sign of things to come.

Surprisingly, I was ‘happy’ when they scored. The thing with Liverpool is, they have this tendency of playing too defensively and worrying too much about what the other team would do. So most of the time the team goes to the field trying to stop the opponent from playing, not to actually play their game. It can be really frustrating sometimes.

So when AC Milan scored early I thought it would be a blessing in disguise. I said to myself, “that’s ok. Conceding early is good for us. Now we have no choice but to go on the attack. Now we can show them what we are capable of.”

Boy, was I wrong!

We did go on the attack immediately, with Riise testing Dida with his trademark thunderous shot. Hyypia also went close to scoring, shooting just over if I remembered correctly. We definitely played well, but Milan were better. They dominated, and the main reason for that were Pirlo & Kaka. Most media in reporting the match seemed to forget about Pirlo. They were only talking about Kaka when in truth, Pirlo was the one who controlled the midfield.

However, they can be forgiven about that because Kaka was simply superb in the first half. He looked dangerous every time he got the ball. His vision, control, passing and movement were too much for Liverpool to handle. A true heir of the great Zidane.

Liverpool managed to hang on until five minutes before halftime. That was when Shevchenko turned provider for Crespo to score the 2nd goal. With that goal, all my hope of winning was gone. That goal was the lowest I felt in the entire game. Watching Milan dominating the first half hurts, but at least I still believed Liverpool can do something and win the game. But the 2nd goal destroyed everything, I practically threw the towel.

Five minutes later just before halftime, a moment of brilliance from Kaka seemed to end the match as a contest. He collected the ball just inside the centre circle, before turning expertly with skill & grace, and with that turn he left Gerrard for dead! Kaka then took a few steps forward, looked up and saw Crespo making a good run in front of him and instinctively threaded a beautiful measured to perfection pass for Crespo. Carragher who was marking Crespo tried to cut the pass by sliding desperately, but the pass was just too good. Crespo did the rest by coolly chipping the ball over the on-rushing Dudek.

The way Kaka mastermind the 3rd goal epitomized the match up to that point. You see, building up to the match, "Kaka-Gerrard Showdown" dominated the headline. Two of the world’s best player will go head on in the match that will decide the best team in Europe. In the first half of that match, clearly Kaka had the upper hand. By ghosting past Gerrard in that move, Kaka layed down the fact that he won the duel.

At that point I have already accepted the fact that Liverpool wasn’t going to win it and Milan had clearly been the better side. So despite being three goals down at the halftime, I wasn’t felling as disappointed as when they scored the 2nd goal. I remember thinking, “that’s ok boys. Just regroup at halftime, play the best that you can in the 2nd half and at least try to make the score line respectable.” That was all I’m hoping for. Just avoid humiliation.

Allegedly, this was said by Benitez in the dressing room during halftime. “Don't let your heads drop. Every player who goes onto the pitch in the 2nd half will have to hold his head up high. We are Liverpool. Never forget that, you have to hold your heads high for the SUPPORTERS....... You can't call yourself Liverpool players if you don't. If we come out and create chances we can get back into this.... Believe we can do this. Believe we can do it and we will... Give yourself the chance to be a hero!”

to be continued, stay tuned.......

Why So Serious?

Imagine a guy forcefully grabbing you by your neck and then pulling you closer until your face is just inches away from his.
Imagine him with a face of an innocent mime, except that the make up is worn out & messy and the face is full of scars.
Imagine him talking in a voice that holds all the rage and grudge deep inside, telling you how his sadistic dad carved the long scars either side of his lips just so he will smile forever.
Then imagine him sticking a knife deep between your lips, asking;
WHY SO SERIOUS?!

Erghh, tried my best there. I was trying to capture the creepiness of The Joker in the Dark Knight. Definately not my best work...

Anyway, do you remember how annoying Joker can get in the previous Batman movies and cartoons? Well he is not annoying anymore, he is downright scary!

I watched The Dark Knight last night and it was awesome! Even the high expectation I had for the movie didn’t ruin it. It was truly awesome! To think that someone can take a cartoon character and then make a deep tight movie out of it is just amazing. I think Spiderman started the trend of adding more human value to a superhero, but this version of Batman just took it to another level altogether.

The directing, acting, script and plot were all worthy of a good proper character based movie. The fight scenes, the special effects and CGIs were all worthy of a summer ‘kick-ass’ blockbuster movie. And Christopher Nolan managed to combine both qualities with aplomb. Well done!

I’m not going to talk about the movie in great details, I’m not up to it right now. All I can say is go watch it. BY FAR the best movie I’ve watched this year!

Agriculture?

My dad had a surprise for me; he had a proposal.

Basically, he wanted me to join him in this project of fish farming. This is one of those initiatives taken by our ever-helpful government to help people start their own business.

“Adik takde duit la ayah”, I told my dad.

Quickly my dad said, “jangan risau, diaorang akan bagi modal. Modal tu dah termasuk gaji. Dalam 4 bulan kita dah boleh jual ikan tu & boleh terus dapat untung.”

Tempting…

When I asked my dad what fish this is, he told me he only calls it ‘ikan bodoh’.

“Kenapa nama dia ikan bodoh?” I asked, laughing.

“Sebab ikan tu kalau kita pergi dekat pun dia tak akan lari. Jadi senang nak tangkap. Ikan tu bodohla” explained my dad.

My dad said this is for export, especially to Japan. We only need to worry about taking care of the fish, other things including buyers and export arrangements are already in place. Then I asked my dad where are we going to do this, do we have to find a place somewhere to dig up pools?

“Tak payah,” said my dad, getting excited because I’m showing interest. “Kat sini kan banyak rumah2 kosong. Diaorang akan cari tempat untuk kita, cari rumah kosong. Ikan ni bela dalam tangki je, dalam rumah. Tak payah nak berpanas. Tak payah susah2 cari tanah nak buat kolam. Semuanya akan disediakan.”

Before I could tell him that I know next to zero about fish, he said,
“Nanti diaorang akan bagi latihan. Akan ada kursus, seminar untuk ajar kita cara nak bela ikan ni. Semua ni free. Kerja kita cuma jaga ikan tu je.”

Oh wow, ‘diaorang’ are REALLY eager to help!

I stayed quiet for a few seconds, thinking…

“Ayah memang betul2 nak buat ni. Sementara ayah boleh dapatkan tempat untuk kita baik kita join. Diaorang cuma akan pilih 50 orang untuk projek ni.”

My dad went on and on about the positives of this project, trying to convince me to join him. He didn’t actually say it, but from the way he said it, he really wanted to do this and he wanted me to join him; and if I’m not joining he is not going to either. Dang, talking about pressure!

Then he dropped the bomb.

“Projek ni fulltime, tak boleh buat part-time. Jadi adik kena berhenti kerja. Jangan risau, pulangan dia lumayan. Kena berani la sikit.”

EEEEK!!!

Quit my job?!
Throw away the security of monthly income?!
WTF!!!

What am I going to do?

I HAVE NEVER EVEN GONE FISHING BEFORE!!!

Summer Movies 2008

“You’re a movie slut,” said a friend to me.
Hmm, I’m not really. It’s just this past few months I’ve been going to the movie a lot. I need something to do to fill my time. Since I’m not that adventurous, watching movies seems to be the safe option.

Every year Hollywood will focus on the summer as it is their most bankable season. They market this part of the year as ‘Summer movies’ time, taking advantage of the holiday. So they packed all the fun, easygoing, light entertainment movie during it. It’s working well for me as football is in hibernation, so movies as replacement to football make a lot of sense.

I can’t really remember every movie that I have watch so far but what I can say is it hasn’t been up to the expectation. The number of times I walked out of the cinema thinking ‘wow that was worth RM50 I spent tonight’ was far in between. And so far only 1 movie that I can classed as an instant classic, and even then I’m a little bit bias for a reason I’m going to tell later.

In my head I categorised movies into 4;
1- Instant Classic
2- Really good and worth my RM50
3- Just okay
4- Crap

‘Instant' Classic movie
So far it is only Ironman. Robert Downey Jr was really good plus a comeback by Gwyneth, good funny script, great CGI, great action sequence etc2. I think Robert Downey Jr really nailed ‘Tony Stark’ character. Anyway, I wouldn’t have put it under instant classic movie normally but I have a very good reason in doing so.
It was because she said 'Ironman' reminds her of me!!! Woohoo! I'm a superhero! **smug, evil proud laugh, smug**

Really Good movie
I have 3 movies under this one;
1- What happened in Vegas – really good romantic comedy for me. I laughed from start to finish. Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz worked well together.
2- KungFu Panda – I’m so glad that I watched this movie. John Black was excellent, and it was refreshing to see an animation moving away from depending on cute lovable character.
3- Drillbit Taylor – now not many will know about this movie. And maybe watching it with low expectation helped a bit. If anything watching the fat kid alone was worth the time. The fat kid in that movie reminded me of the fat kid in ‘Superbad’.

Just Okay movie
Lots of movies under this one.
1- Made of Honor - corny
2- Hancock – V disappointing
3- Hulk – better than I thought it would be
4- Forbidden Kingdom – good to see Jackie Chan and Jet Li together
5- 21
6- Fool’s Gold – Kate Hudson is not that cute anymore :-(
7- Hellboy – a lot better than I expected actually. Would have made the ‘Really Good’ movie if it didn’t drag a little in the middle part of the story.
8- Street King – ‘The Shield’ wannabe. Never ever try to copy the excellent ‘Shield’ because you will look stupid. Don’t even try it!

Crap movie
1- Indiana Jones – really really very utterly disappointing! Shia Lebouf has never ever been that bad. Harrison Ford in that movie was a poor man’s Tommy Lee Jones. The script and action was corny, stupid and predictable. I shook my head at least 3 times while watching it. During the ridiculous monkey tarzan scene, not only I shook my head, I slapped my forehead really hard, had my face in my hands and let out a very loud sigh. I even felt embarrassed watching it!
2- That Kevin Bacon movie – I can’t even remember the title as it was just terrible!

So the movies have not been that good so far, only 1 classic. I’m sure I forgot to mention a few other movies but I just can’t think anymore. The memory of Indiana Jones ruined it all.

However, tomorrow I’m going to see a movie that I have really high hope for. From what I’ve heard so far it is going to be an instant classic. Step up The Dark Night!

Oh and also I wanna watch Zohan. Hope Adam Sandler got it right….

Working at GUP

Things are getting from bad to worse at GUP, where I work. From bad to worse?!! Hahaha! Even saying that makes me feel guilty. Things are more like getting from ‘worse x 1 million’ to ‘worse x 1 billion’! There, that is more accurate. I even think that statement is a little bit soft…..

I need to leave. Sigh, another understatement. I should have left months ago, or at least plan my leaving seriously. All I did was complain and whine to my friends and family about GUP. I have told them that I need to leave but I’m still here. It has been 13 months now. And the initial plan was to leave once I past my one-year. I haven’t even updated my resume yet. Shame on me!

Why is it so hard to leave? Well the biggest reason is I’m scared. Scared to even send in my resume. My Guardian Angel kept forwarding job ads to me in hope I will tell her, “Hey I have updated my resume & I’m going to apply for one of the jobs that u forwarded me. Can you please vet through it?” That’s all that she expects from me but no, nothing. I shamelessly ask her to keep sending me job ads and she is doing just that. She sent me lots of it. There was this one time when she said “I’m seriously going to hurt you if you don’t apply for this job.” But still nothing!

I was saying that I’m scared to leave. Why? Well I feel that right now I know nothing about my work. Everything that I learned from the Hell’s Hole (please refer to ‘My Guardian Angel’ entry, thank you) has somehow vaporised from my brain. I remember when I first joined GUP, we had an event immediately and we had to get the media and I was really up for it. “Well what are we waiting for, lets do it,” I said. Now however I’m not even sure how to start doing that. For the event that we were supposed to have this coming August (got postponed, what do you expect, it’s GUP), I looked for a way out of it. I insisted that we used a PR company so I don’t have to deal with the media. Can you see the difference?

Looking at the requirements in job ads is enough to scare me from applying. The most persuasive and welcoming of job ads will have only five lines of requirements, and most of the time I’m only confidence of doing one of them. So just forget the intimidating ones where the requirements are two pages long.

Another reason that I’m still at GUP is because I have become a lazy bum. I tried to deny it before, blaming my colleagues and my boss for not doing anything for GUP but now it’s just blatantly obvious. There are lots of pending work (I’m not going to list them here) and I just ignore them; and guess what, no one is asking about them. At work all I do is FB-ing and chatting. Sweet life isn’t it, getting paid to chat and sit on your butt all day. Not only that, I can come to work anytime I want and leave work at 5pm (office hours supposed to end at 630pm). Lunch is 4 hours for us, and I can wear whatever I want to the office.

To leave GUP is to leave all that. Am I willing to do it?

Well I have to. I pride myself for getting back on my feet after the pathetic 4 years. I pride myself of being good at what I do. I’m proud of the education I received from Hell’s Hole. The experience I had there though terrible, it was priceless. No other workplace that I know so far can even come close to that place. I cannot let GUP destroy all that. I have to leave…

Yes, leaving I am!

***Note – the writer’s thoughts and emotions as portrayed above were true at the time of publishing. Any change or inconsistency found afterwards should not be used against and/or to mock, tease or ridicule the writer. Please take note. Thank you ;-)

The Pretty Sun and The Lil Plant

Try reading this one using the same tone & style as that narrator from Desperate Housewives
The Pretty Sun is back. The Pretty Sun is shining again bringing yet another promise to The Lil Plant. Will The Pretty Sun stay long? Or will The Pretty Sun be gone soon? The Lil Plant can only hope for a lasting sunshine. After all The Lil Plant has no right to expect anything from The Pretty Sun. With or without The Pretty Sun, life will go on for The Lil Plant, though admittedly without The Pretty Sun life will be bleak. Life will loose its charm.

If The Pretty Sun decided to leave, the empty space that The Pretty Sun left will be replaced by a dark gloomy storm. The Lil Plant is used to the storm by now but make no mistake, being used to it does not mean The Lil Plant wont suffer. The storm will hurt The Lil Plant, the storm will make The Lil Plant weep but life must go on.

The Lil Plant is ready. No matter what The Pretty Sun does, stay or be gone, The Lil Plant has promised to stay strong. No hatred, just anguish. And The Lil Plant has decided no matter what happened, The Lil Plant would be there for The Pretty Sun.

“Don’t be stupid!”, the brain tells The Lil Plant, but the heart is telling The Lil Plant to hang in there. “It is about time,” the heart says, “for The Lil Plant to make sacrifice. Sacrifice in a real sense. Stop expecting anything but give everything to The Pretty Sun. This is not about The Lil Plant, this is about The Pretty Sun. If The Pretty Sun is happy, The Pretty Sun will shine. Although the shine may not be for The Lil Plant, it will be worth it. Let The Pretty Sun shines for whoever because that’s what The Pretty Sun deserves. Making The Pretty Sun happy should make The Lil Plant happy as well.”

So The Lil Plant listens to the heart even if it meant The Lil Plant had to be alone in the dark gloomy storm. If that’s what The Pretty Sun wanted, that’s what The Pretty Sun gets. If The Pretty Sun be gone and came back a thousand times after this, The Lil Plant will just let it be. Nothing will change from The Lil Plant side, after all The Lil Plant is not going anywhere. The Lil Plant will always be there, waiting for The Pretty Sun to be back.

Little price to pay, as long as The Pretty Sun is shining forever….